Persevere with faith and courage
You can’t see what’s in the works for your future during the present. You may feel stuck in where you are or confused in where to go, but things are happening.
I remember being so impatient to graduate from college to start my career. I was so confident in God and I knew that He knew what I wanted and what I needed, that I had zero doubt in Him to bless me with a job. I thought, as long as I have a job before the fall I know I’ll be set and I’ll be able to pay off my student loans soon. Then weeks passed after graduation and I still haven’t heard from any job prospects. I kept applying and kept following up, but nothing was happening. And my Dad would ask me “How are the job interviews going?” And I’ll respond, “There are none! I would have told you by now. Please stop asking because there’s obviously nothing happening.”
It’s not that I lacked faith in God or didn't trust Him with my future; I was struggling with impatience. I assumed I would find something so fast. I didn’t want help from people, I didn’t want to network; I wanted to find a job on my own. Weeks turned into months and I was getting cranky. I would have good days, but then bad days where I felt so discouraged and incompetent. I felt like I wasn’t good enough for the job market or that I was unqualified.
My father noticed my moodiness and called me into his room to talk and he told me something that I would never forget: “You’re still in the process. Your resume is getting looked over, your letters are being read, you’re just not hearing back but that doesn’t mean nothing’s happening. You’re in the process of it all.”
And he was right! I was overlooking the entire process of the job search. I was focusing on the ending of the search, which is the actual job. But I was moving along — I was in the process.
I have applied to about 40 jobs by then and I was about to give up and stop. But I got off my high horse and looked for help. I checked my alma mater's journalism program Facebook group and saw a former professor’s post on a job listing, and another great professor liked the post. I applied for an internship position I found on the job listing that Wednesday night, the next day I heard from the editor for an interview, I visited the office, then I started that week. It all happened so fast and smoothly. It was my first job interview after graduating and I was as cool as a cucumber. I wasn’t nervous, I wasn’t unsure of myself; I felt at peace. I was excited and so grateful about the chance to land a job interview alone.
At that point, it really didn’t matter if I didn’t get the job. I knew I wouldn’t feel disappointed in myself or incompetent, I would know that it wasn’t what God wanted for me, and if He said He didn’t want it for me that’s because it was for my best interest in mind. He knows the desires of my heart so He knows what I truly want and need.
Don’t ignore the entire process of things. Our faith may drop or our passion may dry out because we’re looking at the tangible evidence of what’s in front of us. But what looks so much better is yet to come. Just because we haven’t reached where we want to be doesn’t mean we’re never going to reach it.
For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it?
Look straight ahead, and fix your eyes on what lies before you. Mark out a straight path for your feet; stay on the safe path. Don’t get sidetracked; keep your feet from following evil.
Edited April 2021
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